let’s talk about sex

Not really sex, but more on man-woman relationship. I just need an eye-catching title.

I read an article from somewhere that most women suffer emotional damage (if not temporary emotional damage) after one-night-stand because of the emotional bond women have when they engage in sexual activities. Men, on the other hand, do not face the same problem as women do, which means it is not necessary for them to be in love with you to lay you.

Now, that brings me to my point: How is it possible for men to have sex or even to kiss some random women who just so happen to be around?

Maybe I romanticised physical intimacy but personally, I see it as something only to be shared with that very precious one, the one you would give up many things for. I can’t imagine having another random guy’s tongue sticking into my mouth and his saliva on me, or to have just any guy see me when I’m in my fits of passion.

Some might say lust. Very true. But I would find things very awkward after the moment of passion left. Imagine having sex with a half-stranger whom you are just “fond of” at that moment because the ambience and lighting is right. What comes after your lust is satisfied? It differs for eerybody but for me, it might be loads of awkward embarassment and speechless moments. Speechless because there was nothing much to hold the union in the first place, unless it is another one of those love at first sight thing.

Many a times I tried putting myself in the shoes of most guys and pictured whether I would react the same way as they would. But the thought was just absurd and unnatural.

Honestly speaking, I’ve never tried kissing a half-stranger or someone I am merely fond of because I just can’t do it. Once or twice it was so close but it didn’t happen. Someone else occupied my mind and heart even though he wasn’t within reach at that time. It’s not the question of right or wrong, but it takes more than the word “fond”, lots of cash or hot body to cross my personal boundary…

and that is the entry for the day.

Goodnight.